If I Had Never Been Broken

Is it just me?, life, stories

A letter arrives mysteriously in my mailbox, coated in a black envelope, sealed in blood red ink. 

Breaking the seal and pulling out the parchment reveals an enticing offer of redemption: the chance to start over. A fresh start, a clean slate, to go back in time and never be broken. To erase all the mistakes I’ve made that have kept me from being the best I can be.

To have never been broken. What would life be like? I could have my dream job, old friendships, a clean medical history. But none of that would ever make it worth it. Because if I’d never been broken I would have never met you.

Broken. Here’s the recap – A misfit child. At 15 I begin a viscous cycle. I lose a friend and choose my next direction poorly. I spiral, and leave the prestigious school. I end up at home, where I regroup and hope for a new beginning just an hour away. I fail, again. The cycle continues. Then I meet the catalyst, who pushes me towards recovery. I seek professional help where I end up in an dark office, talking about childhood and…everything else. I find meaning in my studies and intern. They hire me, and I stay awhile. Then a friend leaves, and I speak with another. We become friends, and I meet you at three months. At nine months, you’re my best friend. And you’re the most wonderful human ever to exist.

If a clean slate means never meeting you, then I take this letter and set it aflame. Thank the universe that I was so deeply broken, because after all that madness, I was lucky enough to be your friend. With you, despite my broken soul, I am my best. Whatever fate has brought me, I accept it with open arms. I have you, and you are all I need.


One of the Greatest Humans Ever to Exist

Keep Quiet, Keep Dignity

Is it just me?, life

Having a quiet demeanor in a world of loud mouthed people is depicted as weak by society, but the truth is, it’s a superpower. Holding the tongue with dignity is not a weakness, it’s wise. Those who disagree cannot stop talking long enough to even read this sentence. 

Most people tend to be quick to yell and argue, to shut their ears and scream back before listening, and to make every passing statement into a political battle. 

When did everyone become so volatile? So quick to react and erupt into a mess of insults and debates? When did sitting back to listen and observe with open ears and an open mind become so rare?

Or was the world always this way?

Regardless of how the world was, is, or will be in the future, it takes courage to hold back words and just listen to what’s going on around us. To stop trying to prove a point all the time or constantly get the last word in a conversation takes major will power in this day and time. 

Be the bigger person – it’s a cliché thing to say, but it means a lot. Don’t waste any precious breath on an argument. All it does is spike your stress levels and leave you with cortisol infecting your bloodstream for hours after the event. It’s not worth it, unless it’s your personal mission to ruin your day.

Instead, save some time by walking away and staying silent. It will frustrate the other person while giving you more time to spend on things that make you happy. Every time you see an argument happening, whether in person or on the internet, just walk away and look at funny pictures on your phone, or learn to tune out the unnecessary debates.

Keep quiet, with dignity. Let the foolish continue to scream and miss out on the important things in life.


Stay silent and watch the flowers blow in the wind. (Bluebonnets in Texas)

Top 20 Quotes from ‘A Game of Thrones’ // Arya’s Perspective


Arya Stark from A Game of Thrones by George R.R. Martin is a relatable character who wishes to learn skills of swordsman rather than ballroom dancing. These are the top 20 quotes from the novel, from the chapters of Arya’s perspective:

(I am not affiliated with the author, publisher, etc. I am just a fan of the novels. I own nothing.)

  1. “The wolf pup loved her, even if no one else did.” [Narrator]
  2. “The longer you hide, the sterner the penance.” [Jon]
  3. “Know the men who follow you, and let them know you. Don’t ask your men to die for a stranger.” [Ned]
  4. “You have a wildness in you, child. ‘The wolf blood.’” [Ned]
  5. “Grieve for your friend, but never blame yourself.” [Ned]
  6. “And even the lie was…not without honor.” [Ned]
  7. “When the snows fall and the white winds blow, the lone wolf dies, but the pack survives. Summer is the time for squabbles. In winter, we must protect one another, keep each other warm, share our strengths.” [Ned]
  8. “You may be as different as the sun and the moon, but the same blood flows through both your hearts.” [Ned]
  9. “We have enemies who mean us ill. We cannot fight a war among ourselves.” [Ned]
  10. “She closed her eyes and bit her lip and sent the fear away.” [Narrator]
  11. “The monsters were still there, but the fear was gone.” [Narrator]
  12. A bruise is a lesson, and each lesson makes us better.”[Arya, thinking]
  13. “The cat was an ordinary cat, no more. The others expected a fabulous beast, so that is what they saw.” [Syrio]
  14. “Opening your eyes is all that is needing. The heart lies and the head plays tricks with us, but the eyes see true. Look with your eyes. Hear with your ears. Taste with your mouth. Smell with your nose. Feel with your skin. Then comes the thinking, afterward, and in that way knowing the truth.” [Syrio]
  15. “Are you men or dogs that you would threaten a child?” [Syrio]
  16. “…and you will now be speaking to me with more respect.” [Syrio]
  17. “The man who fears losing has already lost.” [Arya, thinking]
  18. “Never do what they expect.” [Arya, thinking]
  19. “This time the monsters did not frighten her. They seemed almost old friends.” [Narrator]
  20. “…and after that the darkness held no more terrors for her.” [Narrator]


Life Doesn’t Have To Be Complicated

Is it just me?, life

Kindness keeps the world spinning. Compassion is necessary for the survival of our species. Compliments are free and simple. And it’s okay to give one to yourself from time to time.

You love someone? Make sure he/she knows it. Are you sorry about something? Swallow your pride and apologize. 

Unhappy? Change it. Sad? Find a funny picture to make yourself laugh. Tired of running? Stop and breathe. 

Life doesn’t have to be complicated. In fact, life can be quite simple. We, as humans, are the reason life becomes so complex and twisted. We create disaster and drama. The universe isn’t out to get us, the entire world isn’t set up to make us fail, and not everything is preplanned or predestined. 

Shit happens and things can turn extremely sour and unfortunate. But goodness does exist on this planet. It’s not going to fall into our laps – we have to make the goodness happen. We have to push through the arduous days a make better things come.

Be honest, give compliments, show compassion, hug everyone you encounter, smile at strangers, laugh if it’s funny, cry if it’s sad, leave if you’re unhappy, and move on if it’s destroying you from the inside out. Help others when they’re in need, be selfless, be selfish, make decisions on the fly.

Life doesn’t have to be gray and dull, life doesn’t have to be confusing. Go with it, see where it takes you, give everything up and embrace the life you’ve been handed. Choose new paths. Take new routes. Create original works of art and scenery. Write a book of madness and experience everything there is to possibly encounter in this life.

Be a friend, be ridiculous, be weird and quirky, be wise and learn new information everyday.

Be yourself and go where life leads you. Not everything has to be so complicated. Keep it simple.



This is What We Can All Learn From Infants

Is it just me?, life

This tiny human of only eight months is crawling around, exploring. Everything is eye opening for her expanding brain. She observes, she absorbs, and she learns new information with every inspection. She is fascinating to watch and time spent within her presence is priceless. 

There is an important lesson to be learned from this baby. As she grows and advances in skill and cognition she actually has something invaluable to teach, something that we all lose as we turn into teenagers and later adults. 

This baby has – contentment. She’s fed, well rested, and safe. She wants nothing else. Basic human care is all she requires to be happy and content – not toys, not cash, not the most expensive clothing – only nourishment and love. And she’s free to explore the world around her. 

As we age in society, go through schooling, and start full time jobs, we steadily lose the contentment we had as infants. We’re told that success in this world is measured by price tags and bank statements. We’re told that lacking in the financial world equals failure and unhappiness. And we not only believe these statements, but we live by them as well. 

We believe lies like these because they’ve been ingrained into our skulls by the media for decades. We’re allowing others to choose our own definitions of happiness. 

We have much to learn from infants and young children. “Always wanting more” doesn’t have to be our life motto. Contentment is a mindset. As long as we have food to eat and a heart that beats, we should find ways to be more grateful about life in general. Misery is also a mindset. It’s something we choose for various reasons – maybe having a crummy car, an imperfect body, or a low GPA – these things wouldn’t bother a baby, not because a baby is unintelligent, but because infants haven’t been corrupted by the world yet.

Learn from children – it’s the simple things in life that keep us content, but we must first make the choice to be happy.

Random Journal Topics for Everyday of May 2019

Journal Topics, life

May 1 – Wednesday – Set three different goals for the month of May. These goals can include anything from exercising 4 days/week to watching every episode of “The Office” on Netflix. Make sure they apply to you.

May 2 – Thursday – Do you have any plans for the summer? What are they? If not, make some.

May 3 – Friday – What’s something you’ve never done before that you’ve always wanted to do? Why haven’t you done it yet?

May 4 – Saturday – Are you a Star Wars fan? Why or why not?

May 5 – Sunday – Where did you grow up? Do you still live close by?

May 6 – Monday – Have you smiled today? What made you smile? If you haven’t, watch a funny video.

May 7 – Tuesday – Have you complimented anyone today? If not, go give a friend a compliment.

May 8 – Wednesday – If you could take a trip anywhere in the entire universe this summer, all expenses paid, where would you go?

May 9 – Thursday – Who would you take on your fantasy vacation? Would this person/people make the trip more enjoyable?

May 10 – Friday – What is your favorite childhood memory of summer?

May 11 – Saturday – Are any movies being released this summer that you would love to see? How about the new Lion King movie?

May 12 – Sunday – Happy Mother’s Day! What are your feelings on this holiday?

May 13 – Monday – Who was the last person you hugged? Why did you hug? Who would you like to be hugging right now?

May 14 – Tuesday – Do you have any role models? Who are they and why?

May 15 – Wednesday – What is your favorite sea creature? Does the undersea world fascinate or bore you?

May 16 – Thursday – Do you have a quiet place to sit and be alone? Where is it? If not, brainstorm a place.

May 17 – Friday – What animal do you feel best represents you as a person? Do you think that question is ridiculous?

May 18 – Saturday – Do you practice a religion? If so, which one? How important or unimportant is religion to you?

May 19 – Sunday – If you opened up a new store, what would you sell and why?

May 20 – Monday – Do you have any pets? What kind? Or if not, what type of pet would you be interested in?

May 21 – Tuesday – Do you have any weird phobias? What are they? If not, what’s a phobia that doesn’t make sense to you?

May 22 – Wednesday – Do you have any weird obsessions? What are they?

May 23 – Thursday – What song seems to be on your mind a lot lately? Why do you think it’s on your mind so much?

May 24 – Friday – Who has had the largest influence on your life so far?

May 25 – Saturday – Do you prefer to spend time alone or with others? Who is your favorite person in the world to spend time with?

May 26 – Sunday – Is there anything in life that you regret? How could you go about moving on and letting go of that regret?

May 27 – Monday – Today is Memorial Day in the United States. Is there anything about our country you would change if you could?

May 28 – Tuesday – What do you enjoy most about your country? Are you proud to be a citizen?

May 29 – Wednesday – Have you eaten your favorite meal lately? Why or why not? What is your favorite meal?

May 30 – Thursday – How did you do with your goals set on May 1st? Were the goals difficult or easy? Will you be continuing those goals into June?

May 31 – Friday – Reflect back on this month. Were you generally happy, sad, bored, stressed? Did anything significant happen?


Listen – Or Prepare for Revolutions

Is it just me?, life, stories

They told her, “No,” because she threatened their archaic ways with insightful information and ideas. It would have been wiser to just allow her to speak. Denying her the right to express her thoughts and ideas only enraged her soul and followers. Their refusal to listen gave birth to an unrelenting motivation and revolution within her heart of persistence. 

In many ways, the original rejection from their harsh voices become the seed for all her success. That single word, “No,” was the catalyst to create a plan to change the modern world. Their closed-mindedness sparked the movement of her life’s work. It became her reason to exist, her purpose in life, and her motivation to fight the institutions in charge. They will blame her for all eternity, for the defiance in their congregation. They will forever fail to see that it was their denial and refusal to listen to their members that lead to their inevitable downfall.

Those old, white-haired, tired men sit up high on their thrones of lies and corruption. The cruel ways of their forefathers, the sins of their previous leaders, and the flaws of their out-dated systems – it’s all coming to light. She is bringing the harsh truth into view for all the world to see with their own eyes.

All they said to her was, “No,” and now their castle walls are crumbling down into the earth they have disrespected for centuries. Their rule books carved in decaying stones are dissolving into dust and flying away with the winds of higher powers.

They thought they were kings. They thought they knew the truth of existence and the universe surrounding our tiny speck of life. They thought. And they failed. Now they must be replaced as leaders of our species.

Listen to those who dare to speak their minds. Denying the rights of free men and women can only lead to downfalls of those in charge.

Listen. Or prepare for revolutions.


Caged Tiger